Sunday

Re: 2PM


This feels like the same thing when Jay said sorry, packed up and left town last September.

Wow. It's been 5 months.

Time passes by very fast. And time, it seems, opened more wounds than heal them.

But this time, somehow the repercussions seem to be bigger.


Hopes were diminished, a verbal war is happening between fans or anyone who care to have a throw in the discussion and people are turning their backs on each other.


How did all these happen?


I am only praying for the best.


Being quite a skeptic at times, I doubt 2PM's near future will be good. It was a good comeback for their 1:59PM album, but whatever Jay had done (or not done, as some would argue) would really affect the individuals' images and the group as a whole. For now, at least.

I am just very sad to see some things that could be handled well not done so, and so soured a lot of relations and ignite a lot of bitter backlashes. But what is done is done, we can never reverse time to a time where 2PM was at the peak of their game as a 7-member group and everyone looked up to the leadja.

Yes, those were happy times.


Will 2PM as 6-member group be successful? Maybe. They DO still have their own futures to think about. But perhaps, knowing the relentless nature of Korean netizens (and international netizens to a certain extent), I am quite sad that the remaining 6 will be bearing the brunt of this whole mess, regardless whether they had a part to play in this or not.

The world...is after all, real. When these idols wave goodbye, step off the stage, they take off their masks and face the reality of life - money, living expenses, contract deals, family, etc. As they wash away their makeup, they are faced with themselves - who they really are, how they really relate to people and each other.

It seems as if they are bearing the weight of the world on their shoulder, no wonder many of their bodies in the end give up. With an age that is only in the late teens (1990s), they are too young to face the world. I guess this is the price of fame.


And I guess that's why many reports saying that Jay looks happy. Perhaps away from the prying eyes and relentless media attention, he's more at peace, able to make peace with himself, and truly do what he loves best, without the pressure behind his back. No doubt he would miss those precious times of training and teaching, especially with his brothers in his ancestral land, but the most important thing is where he is today and where he's going to go in the future. They are all his choices. To call JYPE and confess whatever he had done was his choice (even if many don't believe it, we'll just stick to the official version for now) and that again, reflects on his character. I believe that Jay (if he really did what he did) has learned to be more mature. There's a lot of guts in confession, it really need one to humble oneself and receive consequences, even if it means losing everything.

As for the rest of the members, I do believe that they also make their own choices. If anyone of them decide to turn their backs on their once leader, it's their choice. You cannot force them to be friends forever. Fly To The Sky had the similar problem almost happening, Brian and Hwanhee couldn't even speak to each other for a while. And even if they didn't turn their backs, but continued performing and hosting, those were also part of their choices. They, too, have reality to think about. And as idols, they have a heavier responsibility to carry. If they didn't entertain, they are labeled as boring and this affects the group dynamics. If they did entertain, they are targeted for criticisms in any other possible areas.

Of course, I am not saying that they can do whatever they want, neither am I condoning wrongdoings. All I'm saying is that every individual is responsible for the choice they make, including netizens, fans and antis when they decide to voice their heated sentiments against the group or against each other.

(Edit: I am not saying that we shouldn't support the remaining 6. I think we need to continue to support them because 2PM initially, is made out of 7 talents, not 1 talent and 6 backup dancers. So should one leave, we still have the remaining 6 talents and they still make up 2PM. Cutting a limb doesn't mean the rest of the body won't need to function. But cutting a limb does hurt like nuts, and I am very sure that 2PM are frustrated and hurting as much as the fans. I am just pointing out that they are all making choices, so whether it will hurt themselves and other people or not, it's their consequence to bear.)


What a sad, sad reality.


I just hope that many of these fans of 2PM will learn to think things through thoroughly before making hasty remarks. If not, we will only have scattered and bloodied bodies by the time this is over. Broken morale and bitter spirits. That IS not the future of entertainment.


All being said, I wish Jay to continue on to be more mature in life and all the best in whatever he's doing, should he be back in Korea or not. I also wish the best for each of the remaining 2PM members, in 2PM or not. I also wish that all 2PM fans, antis and netizens will find in them a passion that build lives rather than break them. Lives should not be broken over issues like these.


Whew, that was a long rant.

Saturday

Re: Jay

I don't know what to think of the new development.

I'll just wait for the rest of the necessity to happen.

But JYPE really needs to fire their PR guy and hire a new one. They are really handling this so badly that it's not even believable.

Sigh.


What a sight.


Read about the news here: allkpop.com

Goodbye Jay. You will be missed. Hope that you will have a great time enjoying the things that you love most. God bless.

Thursday

Selah



I'm taking a break from Twitter, my current favorite in terms of blogging.

Twitter, as many know, is a form of social networking site, but to me, it's really like micro-blogging more.

I am probably very weird to many people (LOL) because seriously, who takes break off things like these?

But I do.

It's a good time to let go of something and someone so that I can truly focus back on my One Love: Jesus Christ.

We are often so distracted by things that seem so yummy but oh so temporary. For the past few years during my university days, I wasn't growing in my relationship with Christ because I was too busy being distracted by many things, but most importantly, I lost the touch of building relationships with people. Sure, many know I go to church etc, but nobody knows how real my faith is to me because I conveniently forgot to build relationships with other people.

It is very difficult, the road back to Christ. I had to throw away myself and sever my ties with things I love. But oh, it's so worth it when I'm back in His loving arms and truly understand that He loves me, not because of what I can do or what I'm good at, but rather because He's good and He is love.

People like Rev. Edmund Chan and Pr. Jaeson Ma helped me a lot with their writings. But if I had not wanted it for myself, I wouldn't be able to take those writings and seek God for myself.

And God doesn't want to withhold what is best for us. He wants to give it all and bless us, but where are we right now? Are we still caught up in the temporal or the eternal?

The apostle Paul wrote about fixing our eyes on what is unseen because those are eternal. When I get my perspective right, I experience more freedom. Temporary things just give us a short-lived sense of joy and happiness, but it's only in God that I truly find true satisfaction, regardless of the situation.

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I've been reading Dannah Gresh's "And The Bride Wore White: Seven Secrets to Sexual Purity" again. It's been one of my favorite books, and as I approach a stage in my life where I tentatively consider marriage (Don't smirk or gag. I believe everyone would have thought of that no matter how they opposed against the idea of marriage in sometime of their lives) the book has been a tremendous blessing.

The road to sexual purity is never easy since we were never pure to begin with. It's so easy to just fall back into the impurity that is once us. But with Jesus Christ's sacrifice for our sins and our growing relationship with Him, we can become pure.

Just let it sit with you for a while. How amazing is that?

And purity helps us to set a goal that when we meet our second love of our lives (first must always be Christ) we are able to give our all and enjoy the fullness of our union. Someone that we can say to them, "You are everything, totally worth it!"

But purity also loves its Creator at all costs. Dannah wrote about "God is sovereign, Jesus is enough". To me, that is also important. Until Jesus is enough in my life, until I have fully embraced that truth in my life and live it out, I am not sure if I can love another. And is God not sovereign? Does He not know what is best for us?

Selah.

And it's with God's strength that I can look with new eyes and let go of someone that I thought I really liked because of some traits that fitted my list (yes, we should all have a shopping list for the HIM or the HER, so we draw clear boundaries, break less hearts but make more friends) but the funny thing is that I don't even know the person. It's like fandom that got too far.

LOL.

It's also with this new eyes that I don't have to get so emo all the time and truly enjoy my singlehood, along with my sistas...be truly myself. To be truly attractive, is to be yourself. Yourself doesn't mean a temporary I'm-feeling-awesome-today-then-froggy-tomorrow hormonal imbalance, but embracing what God has created us to be = His princess, with royal robes and all.

Again, selah.


:)



I love these little tidbits I get along the way of reading books. I'm not well-read nor am I eloquent, but God has blessed me with authors who write from the heart that wants to pursue God. Challenges me and stimulates me to love Him more, and proceed to love others more.

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I still need to work on my patience and gentleness though. LOL. When I write, I don't like people to disturb me. But I need to be grateful for distractions sometimes, gives me time to have another kind of insight. Relationships after all, are more important than words can say.



In His great love,
Rebekah

Friday

Hmm...

I should actually redo this but oh well. Enjoy.

Sunday

The Person I Know

Verse 1:
你是何等的美麗
怎麼形容你的魅力
我站在遠方
有那一點的海洋
看不到你
只不過是一種心裡的距離
但我害怕
認識的人不是你

Chorus:
也許這是一種奇妙的事情
世界上哪還有邊界的約束
我默默地看著你
又不敢地靠近再靠近你
哦~
我應該不應該繼續這樣下去
追求這麼美麗的你
但我害怕認識的人不是你

Coda:
我好害怕認識的人的確是你
你是何等的美麗
好害怕我真的真的愛上你