It has been a tiring weekend, and at the same time refreshing enough. I learned to know which group of people are more for acquaintanceship, and others for real friendships.
And I learned that it is always nice to talk to older, wiser people (not including MY parents) to learn from them. Or maybe I'm getting tad bit too grown up...
Hahaha..
At the same time, it's nice to talk to people younger than me, spend time with them, learn their strengths, joys, passion and even weaknesses and sadness.
And of course, at the same time, it's fun to talk to peers, those of same age and share with them with things more of our age, for example, school, uni, our juniors, our seniors, it's a great bonding time.
I am definitely going to miss my juniors in DJ CG. They have grown and are growing and that really encourages me. I am definitely going to miss the friendships and bonding time that have been forged when I was still in XYZ. I am blessed by my time there. I have learned much and learning still.
Not that I won't talk to my friends again, definitely I would still keep in touch. It's just that again, some group will cease to be in the friendship group and go into acquaintanceship. It happens. It's called seasonal.
Ah, the future...not that I should be so anxious about. :)
Tuesday
Could I?
My parents celebrated their 25th anniversary today. 25! Wow...that is a long way to go. I wonder if I ever get married, can the hubby and I reach 25 years together, as strong and affectionate as before?
That will be God to know, and me to find out. :)
Suddenly, I am lost for words. Not lost in thoughts but just lost for words. Hahaha...
Sigh, I thought I could get my baby this month, but then looks like I have to wait till July. Oh well, at least I know I will still be around to journey together with my pride and joy.
Seeing Wern going on a trip to China, it makes me want to take a trip too...hehe...there's already a list of places I want to go...Canada, America, Aussie, Korea, Sabah and Sarawak...hahaha...yeah, haven't been to the East side of the country so it's in my list too...but first, I must get enough cash in my bank account to fund my expensive taste in countries. Hehe...
Can't wait to don a jacket suit for the upcoming MCCC...I may look like a total klutz in formal office wear but at least working in Secret Recipe should teach me some kind of etiquette a bit. I hope.
Oh, work. Don't ask questions about work. It's like a forbidden topic to discuss.
Meanwhile, I get my own hard disk space! Isn't that so uber cool...especially when it's bout 80 GB...muahahahhaha...
I should stop watching Channel 11 (Discovery Travel & Living), makes my mouth water or at least my feet itchy to travel to those places. Sigh.
Oh well, that just means I should get a CEO position, eh? :P
That will be God to know, and me to find out. :)
Suddenly, I am lost for words. Not lost in thoughts but just lost for words. Hahaha...
Sigh, I thought I could get my baby this month, but then looks like I have to wait till July. Oh well, at least I know I will still be around to journey together with my pride and joy.
Seeing Wern going on a trip to China, it makes me want to take a trip too...hehe...there's already a list of places I want to go...Canada, America, Aussie, Korea, Sabah and Sarawak...hahaha...yeah, haven't been to the East side of the country so it's in my list too...but first, I must get enough cash in my bank account to fund my expensive taste in countries. Hehe...
Can't wait to don a jacket suit for the upcoming MCCC...I may look like a total klutz in formal office wear but at least working in Secret Recipe should teach me some kind of etiquette a bit. I hope.
Oh, work. Don't ask questions about work. It's like a forbidden topic to discuss.
Meanwhile, I get my own hard disk space! Isn't that so uber cool...especially when it's bout 80 GB...muahahahhaha...
I should stop watching Channel 11 (Discovery Travel & Living), makes my mouth water or at least my feet itchy to travel to those places. Sigh.
Oh well, that just means I should get a CEO position, eh? :P
Sunday
Vanilla
Went to Coffee Bean yesterday during CG hours...nyak ha ha...cause there were only 6 of us as the rest are busy studying or having exams in school so Christine, Ben, Leroy, Gene Harn, Jamie and I got into two cars (mine and Ben's) and we basically sat there in CoffeeBean and just yak away totally un-CG stuff...Things like phones (I only realise that there is such brand call Dopod, I am so out-dated already.), cars, my uni, England (cause Ben & Jamie were there for quite a while), and all things alcoholic.
Someone suggested I should try drinking cocktails cause I hate the taste of beer,wine and the sorts.
Okay, why did I even start talking bout stuff like that?
So anyway, since I am such a clueless person when it comes to high-end cafes such as CoffeeBean, Starbucks, Secret Recipe, Dome, and such...so I was equally slightly uncomfy sitting in a very still cafe. We were making the most noise.
I got an official ceremony on this coming Saturday which I get to shake hands with some Datuk or such and maybe show my braces to the camera. I should be liking it. The only thing is that I am so gonna be so alone cause my parents are busy with MCCC and I being selfish, never inform my friends about it. Cause I don't know. Is it a private occasion? Now I guessed probably a person could have brought 10 friends with them and occupy every seat in the hall. Sigh. It's at 10.30 am in Sin Chew Daily hall. Anyone interested to clap for me? :P Do let me know.
I still remember the time where I went out with a bunch of people to 1U Jusco Food Court to taste Carissa's mom & aunt's cooking. And I went to order a Ice blended Vanilla tea. I think that was still the best tea I ever tasted. At least it doesn't give me stomachaches. :)
We celebrated Pr.Foo and Aunty Lisa's anniversary yesterday as a zone. He mentioned that as we look for girlfriend/boyfriend, we should always keep our eyes wide open. It is only after marriage that we close one eye. I believe that's an advice we can all take.
Someone suggested I should try drinking cocktails cause I hate the taste of beer,wine and the sorts.
Okay, why did I even start talking bout stuff like that?
So anyway, since I am such a clueless person when it comes to high-end cafes such as CoffeeBean, Starbucks, Secret Recipe, Dome, and such...so I was equally slightly uncomfy sitting in a very still cafe. We were making the most noise.
I got an official ceremony on this coming Saturday which I get to shake hands with some Datuk or such and maybe show my braces to the camera. I should be liking it. The only thing is that I am so gonna be so alone cause my parents are busy with MCCC and I being selfish, never inform my friends about it. Cause I don't know. Is it a private occasion? Now I guessed probably a person could have brought 10 friends with them and occupy every seat in the hall. Sigh. It's at 10.30 am in Sin Chew Daily hall. Anyone interested to clap for me? :P Do let me know.
I still remember the time where I went out with a bunch of people to 1U Jusco Food Court to taste Carissa's mom & aunt's cooking. And I went to order a Ice blended Vanilla tea. I think that was still the best tea I ever tasted. At least it doesn't give me stomachaches. :)
We celebrated Pr.Foo and Aunty Lisa's anniversary yesterday as a zone. He mentioned that as we look for girlfriend/boyfriend, we should always keep our eyes wide open. It is only after marriage that we close one eye. I believe that's an advice we can all take.
Friday
Better
I'm feeling better.
Maybe the phase is ending.
Maybe I'm rediscovering.
Maybe I'm just too tired to be sad.
Maybe I am singing again.
You can visit my Spirit Blog for new updates.
Maybe it's because it's my last week tomorrow.
Maybe it's because I read this phrase:
The king of my mountains shall be the lord of my valleys.
Maybe I am forgetting whom I am suppose to forget.
Maybe not.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Maybe the phase is ending.
Maybe I'm rediscovering.
Maybe I'm just too tired to be sad.
Maybe I am singing again.
You can visit my Spirit Blog for new updates.
Maybe it's because it's my last week tomorrow.
Maybe it's because I read this phrase:
The king of my mountains shall be the lord of my valleys.
Maybe I am forgetting whom I am suppose to forget.
Maybe not.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Thursday
Obstinate Obsession
Obsession can harm you.
Possessiveness can consume you.
Jealousy can burn you.
Pride can blind you.
Torn between decisions.
Broken and fragile.
Morning rises, spirit rises...
As the dark commence, so becomes the mood.
It's not that I'm trying to be depressing here. Heck, it's my blog. I can choose to be depressing as much as I want here on my blog.
Anyway.
I am in the phase where I'm sitting in a playground swing, sometimes I swing high, sometimes the swing just sways a little. Yeah, it's the phase. Only this phase is repeating itself tad bit too often.
A lot on my mind these few days as the phase started. I'm beginning to doubt my friendships. But then doubt was created out of my selfishness..anyway. Back to the topic. I was wondering should I bring myself away from these friendships. They say as you grow older, you have a smaller circle of close friends. Problem is...which are the ones to keep? CLEO talks about how to break up friendships, even best friendships.
Now I am not even sure if my choices nowadays are correct.
I should just enrol into a mental asylum...maybe I would just think myself to death.
Anyone care to belanja me go bowling? (By belanja-ing here means, to set the date for me, drive me to the place and back, get permission for me, pay for my shoes and fees, and watch me throw a few kgs of balls into the longkang and cry in the end in frustration)
Maybe you can just pay a shrink for me. Or you be the shrink. But beware, I will bore you.
Nah, I'll just be my own shrink.
SOmetimes, I don't even know what in the world I'm crapping about.
[edit]: hey ppl out there, it's just a phase. So don't need to lend me a shoulder to cry on. It's a time where I need to vent my emotions out before it really bite a chunk out of me. So yeah, really. Ventilation is good for the lungs and heart. I am fine. Just a phase.
Possessiveness can consume you.
Jealousy can burn you.
Pride can blind you.
Torn between decisions.
Broken and fragile.
Morning rises, spirit rises...
As the dark commence, so becomes the mood.
It's not that I'm trying to be depressing here. Heck, it's my blog. I can choose to be depressing as much as I want here on my blog.
Anyway.
I am in the phase where I'm sitting in a playground swing, sometimes I swing high, sometimes the swing just sways a little. Yeah, it's the phase. Only this phase is repeating itself tad bit too often.
A lot on my mind these few days as the phase started. I'm beginning to doubt my friendships. But then doubt was created out of my selfishness..anyway. Back to the topic. I was wondering should I bring myself away from these friendships. They say as you grow older, you have a smaller circle of close friends. Problem is...which are the ones to keep? CLEO talks about how to break up friendships, even best friendships.
Now I am not even sure if my choices nowadays are correct.
I should just enrol into a mental asylum...maybe I would just think myself to death.
Anyone care to belanja me go bowling? (By belanja-ing here means, to set the date for me, drive me to the place and back, get permission for me, pay for my shoes and fees, and watch me throw a few kgs of balls into the longkang and cry in the end in frustration)
Maybe you can just pay a shrink for me. Or you be the shrink. But beware, I will bore you.
Nah, I'll just be my own shrink.
SOmetimes, I don't even know what in the world I'm crapping about.
[edit]: hey ppl out there, it's just a phase. So don't need to lend me a shoulder to cry on. It's a time where I need to vent my emotions out before it really bite a chunk out of me. So yeah, really. Ventilation is good for the lungs and heart. I am fine. Just a phase.
Tuesday
Stuck-Up
No, I couldn't have spelled my words better. For the past few days, even today, I felt as if the weight of my own faults have started to weigh on me.
After reading someone's blog, I just realised how jealous..(yeah, you read it right. I am jealous.) I am of people that person thanked. I suddenly realise how such a stuck-up, selfish prig or pig for any of that matter.
It's not that I cannot be generous. It's just that I always choose to be more selfish and stuck-up. Sigh.
So that is why I am jealous. Jealous of people who seem to acquire more friends, jealous of people who seem to be more composed and mature, jealous because I'm too selfish and stuck-up to change.
So today, all I want to do is just tape my mouth, shut up and sit on a rooftop. While I let my own world consume me. Then I can stop being such a stuck-up, priggish fishmonger. (By fishmonger means 'selfish'. No connection at all to genuine fishmonger who really sell fishes.)
Bah.
After reading someone's blog, I just realised how jealous..(yeah, you read it right. I am jealous.) I am of people that person thanked. I suddenly realise how such a stuck-up, selfish prig or pig for any of that matter.
It's not that I cannot be generous. It's just that I always choose to be more selfish and stuck-up. Sigh.
So that is why I am jealous. Jealous of people who seem to acquire more friends, jealous of people who seem to be more composed and mature, jealous because I'm too selfish and stuck-up to change.
So today, all I want to do is just tape my mouth, shut up and sit on a rooftop. While I let my own world consume me. Then I can stop being such a stuck-up, priggish fishmonger. (By fishmonger means 'selfish'. No connection at all to genuine fishmonger who really sell fishes.)
Bah.
Monday
Baggy
There are times when I dream too much.
Hehe...
It was great to sleep when you are not feeling well. It's a beauty. I love sleep!
Okay...maybe that is such a wrong subject to dwell on..
Now I can't sleep.
Leroy teased me the other day when I showed up with quite dark eyebags..."BGR problem is it?"
So duh.
I should get a concealer so people won't question my eyebags anymore...Keep off all of you! Bah rahhhh!
It probably is just me cause my sleeping hours are so unlike the sun rising.
Just a thought. I will not send my kids to private schools. No way. Being in a private school doesn't guarantee the best education. So, yeah. Just a thought. No offence to my friends from private schools. I look at you guys and gals as you are. :) No offence to anyone sending their kids to private school. Just a private opinion.
Hehe...
It was great to sleep when you are not feeling well. It's a beauty. I love sleep!
Okay...maybe that is such a wrong subject to dwell on..
Now I can't sleep.
Leroy teased me the other day when I showed up with quite dark eyebags..."BGR problem is it?"
So duh.
I should get a concealer so people won't question my eyebags anymore...Keep off all of you! Bah rahhhh!
It probably is just me cause my sleeping hours are so unlike the sun rising.
Just a thought. I will not send my kids to private schools. No way. Being in a private school doesn't guarantee the best education. So, yeah. Just a thought. No offence to my friends from private schools. I look at you guys and gals as you are. :) No offence to anyone sending their kids to private school. Just a private opinion.
Wednesday
When I Was Young
-When I was young, I wanted to be a scientist, a rockstar, a genera, an actor...well, I guess there were signs.- Some fella from Astro Scholarship Awards Ad.
When I was young...
-I wanted to be a teacher. I prop all my stuffed toys and starting using a ruler to teach.
-I wanted to be a manager. I wanted to be like daddy, who looks important in the company.
-I wanted to be an author. I wanted to write books like Enid Blyton or Carolyn Keene.
-I wanted to be a singer. I wanted to sing and sing and sing.
-I wanted to be a concerto pianist. I wanted to play and be proud that I can play by ear...(well, average only lerr..)
-I wanted to be a gymnast. Hey, it's cool with the ribbon. And the flips/somersaults...it's uber cool.
-I wanted to be a ballet dancer. I wanted to dance and express myself.
-I wanted to be an artist. I wanted to make my art known to the world.
-I wanted to be a princess. I wanted to be rich, live in a palace, or be swooned like every other princesses in fairy tales.
-I wanted to be an actress. I wanted to be like Annie, or Maria or even Whitney Houston.
-I wanted to be a doctor. I used to be so fascinated with all the equipments doctors used.
-I wanted to be an architect. I wanted to design houses and stay in them.
and the list goes on...just that I'm in a block for a while. :)
Well, I guess there were signs.
Times when I am more reflective. Hehe..then again. I'm always reflective on this blog. Bah. Maybe it's the greenery. ;)
It's funny when you love someone whom you can only speak to, hear, see the pictures, but you can't watch their lips moving when they talk, you can't see their facial expression, you can't see their smile in their eyes, it's like falling in love with a stranger. Yet, yet, yet...that stranger is one of the closest to you.
Interesting how relationships work.
Haha...it's amazing how God is so faithful. It's so amazing.
Things less thoughtful:
Lizards are weird. My mom doesn't like them. They are like pests. I hate lizards too. They look too sticky for me.
Picture courtesy of http://www.westermayer.de/till/indien
No offence to lizards lovers. Just want to make sure I can remember my first attempt in graphics and multimedia...and after I get my degree...I want to see how different it will be. Teehee.
When I was young...
-I wanted to be a teacher. I prop all my stuffed toys and starting using a ruler to teach.
-I wanted to be a manager. I wanted to be like daddy, who looks important in the company.
-I wanted to be an author. I wanted to write books like Enid Blyton or Carolyn Keene.
-I wanted to be a singer. I wanted to sing and sing and sing.
-I wanted to be a concerto pianist. I wanted to play and be proud that I can play by ear...(well, average only lerr..)
-I wanted to be a gymnast. Hey, it's cool with the ribbon. And the flips/somersaults...it's uber cool.
-I wanted to be a ballet dancer. I wanted to dance and express myself.
-I wanted to be an artist. I wanted to make my art known to the world.
-I wanted to be a princess. I wanted to be rich, live in a palace, or be swooned like every other princesses in fairy tales.
-I wanted to be an actress. I wanted to be like Annie, or Maria or even Whitney Houston.
-I wanted to be a doctor. I used to be so fascinated with all the equipments doctors used.
-I wanted to be an architect. I wanted to design houses and stay in them.
and the list goes on...just that I'm in a block for a while. :)
Well, I guess there were signs.
Times when I am more reflective. Hehe..then again. I'm always reflective on this blog. Bah. Maybe it's the greenery. ;)
It's funny when you love someone whom you can only speak to, hear, see the pictures, but you can't watch their lips moving when they talk, you can't see their facial expression, you can't see their smile in their eyes, it's like falling in love with a stranger. Yet, yet, yet...that stranger is one of the closest to you.
Interesting how relationships work.
Haha...it's amazing how God is so faithful. It's so amazing.
Things less thoughtful:
Lizards are weird. My mom doesn't like them. They are like pests. I hate lizards too. They look too sticky for me.
Picture courtesy of http://www.westermayer.de/till/indien
No offence to lizards lovers. Just want to make sure I can remember my first attempt in graphics and multimedia...and after I get my degree...I want to see how different it will be. Teehee.
Saturday
ITCU (Read it backwards)
Oh, can't I challenge you people a lil'?
Be a sport! Hehe...
I thank God who provided me with a scholarship to study! Hallelujah...it's really a journey of faith and really really all praise to the One who never cease to be faithful..
And it's the uni I wanted to study all along. So, yeah, it's really cool..
And I thank God for placing people in my life who supports me, pray for me, encourages me especially during times like these..
I didn't tell everyone but those who I felt needed to know cause some were closest to me and the rest are my mentors. So, yeah...you know who you are. Thank you so much..you're the best!
I start my term in August 1st...Lester's birthday! :)
So dear friends, looks like I'm gonna be around and not in Penang after all..
Thank You Lord.
Be a sport! Hehe...
I thank God who provided me with a scholarship to study! Hallelujah...it's really a journey of faith and really really all praise to the One who never cease to be faithful..
And it's the uni I wanted to study all along. So, yeah, it's really cool..
And I thank God for placing people in my life who supports me, pray for me, encourages me especially during times like these..
I didn't tell everyone but those who I felt needed to know cause some were closest to me and the rest are my mentors. So, yeah...you know who you are. Thank you so much..you're the best!
I start my term in August 1st...Lester's birthday! :)
So dear friends, looks like I'm gonna be around and not in Penang after all..
Thank You Lord.
Monday
Procrastinate. No.
Well, I added a few stuff to my blog, making it upload slower..Hehe...
Reason I had three clocks are well...kinda says it all right? It's actually easier so that when I talk to my friends in India and Melbourne, I would know what time is it and stop asking them what time is it over there. Ha.
And yes, I finally added links...oh, glorious links. Though it's not the full list of people I visit, but it's a good start. Don't you think?
And oh, there's the Spirit blog which I changed the address...Aiks, only update occasionally. Now is already May! Haha...one month missing.
Tell me what do you think. Should I dump the clocks after the credits or tagboard or let it stay where it is??
Reason I had three clocks are well...kinda says it all right? It's actually easier so that when I talk to my friends in India and Melbourne, I would know what time is it and stop asking them what time is it over there. Ha.
And yes, I finally added links...oh, glorious links. Though it's not the full list of people I visit, but it's a good start. Don't you think?
And oh, there's the Spirit blog which I changed the address...Aiks, only update occasionally. Now is already May! Haha...one month missing.
Tell me what do you think. Should I dump the clocks after the credits or tagboard or let it stay where it is??
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