Empty Seat

Remember when Mary Jane told Peter Parker:
"To me, you have become just an empty seat." (Okay, it wasn't really exactly that sentence, but you get the gist.)

From then on, I love that line. I wrote in two songs with that word empty seat. It's crazy, I know. It just shows how uncreative I am.

:(


Niwayz.

This is a song that can be sung by both guys and girls. I mean, if a guy like Victor Wong sings it, it works. If a girl like Fan Fan sings it, it works too. But she sang quite a number of songs about being a friend to the brokenhearted...da da da.

So same old story.

I need new ideas.

妳的酒窩不見了

消失在失戀之中

他很隨便不明白

寂寞很殘酷

生活都無法專心

心情像旋風不定

妳只得忍著眼淚

將樂代替悲

* 他已經忘記妳曾經所給

他已經代替妳曾經的位

他已經牽著另外個的手

他不再回頭

妳曾經等待他的紅玫瑰

卻等到的依然是空座位

行李箱滿滿地等妳說離開

慢慢地妳會找回深愛

情緒能壓抑一時

不解開就苦一世

妳很想把他忘掉

思念卻反覆

黑暗裡跌跌撞撞

他沒有留下盞光

妳很想恨他殘忍

原諒才釋放

**他已經忘記妳曾經所給

他已經代替妳曾經的位

他已經牽著另外個的手

他不再回頭

妳不必等待他的紅玫瑰

因為等到依然是空座位

行李箱滿滿地等妳說離開

慢慢地妳會找回深愛

Rough translation:
Your dimple's gone
Lost in the midst of breakups
He's quite nonchalant don't understand
Loneliness is quite cruel

Can't focus on life (at first i wrote can't focus on exams...cause i really can't focus on exams now! GAH!!!)
Emotions is like the whirlwind, restless
You can only be patient, not letting your tears fall
Replace sadness with joy

He has already forgotten what you have been giving
He has already replace your seat
He's holding another person's hand
He's not coming back
You used to wait for his red rose
Instead all you got was an empty seat (there you go!)
The luggage is packed waiting for you to say leave
Slowly you will find back deep love (true love lah it means)

Emotions can be suppress for a while
Don't break free it will be suffering for life
You really want to forget him
Memories just don't quite follow

In the darkness you fall about
He didn't leave you any light
You really want to hate him for being such a jerk (haha...i'm not on anti-guy mode. i'm serious)
It's only forgiveness that can set you free

(if i'm on an anti-guy mode, it will go like this...)
He's already forgotten what you gave (shouldn't have given him that rolex.)
He's already replacing your seat (i'm replacing the car seat now.)
He's already holding another person's hand (she's gonna suffer)
He's not coming back (good for you)
You don't need to wait for his red roses (i like pink ones better)
Because you wait and wait its gonna be still an empty seat (tickets for sale!)
The luggage is packed just waiting for you to say leave (go baby go)
Slowly you will find your love again (good for you, worse for him)

Study

Need to study.

Looks like there's more than it meets the eye.

I have slacked for one week.

Now it's time to restart my engine.

Last semester, can't go wrong.

It'd be crap if it goes wrong.


Why do they even have exams?


Just wish that all will be MCQ (multiple choice questions), harder never mind, at least still can tembak. (shoot)


Now, the only thing I can do is goreng. (fry)



Gah. I admit, I am lazy.

I'm Not A Good Man

...cause I'm not a man. Haha...

Okay, that wasn't particularly the funniest thing.

But I recently stepped into the shoes of a guy and wrote a love song. Another whimsical attempt. But apparently my friend from Taiwan loves it. And he's a guy.

So.

Tell me what you think.

我不是個好男人
但是比妳想像好得多
妳愛我很簡單
比起我愛妳簡單多

我不善於甜言蜜語
浪漫不是我的本領

但是
我愛妳
這個我確定
很肯定
寶貝
妳是唯一
觸動我的心
就是妳

我承認我很愚昧
揣測不到妳的真感情
妳說妳很痛心
妳不懂我聽了也痛

我不想要離情別緒
分手不是我的要求

因為
我愛妳
這個我堅信
不動搖
寶貝
妳是唯一
教我愛更多
就是妳

還有時間還有機會
一直爲妳改進自己

因為
我愛妳
這個我肯定
沒說謊
寶貝
妳是唯一
讓我愛到疼
就是妳

寶貝
妳是唯一
教我愛更多
就是妳

我不是個好男人
但是比妳想像好得多

Rough translation:

I'm not a good man
But I'm a better one that you've given credit for being
It's easy for you to love me
Easier than for me to love you

I'm not very good with words
Nor am I very romantic

But
I love you
This I'm sure
Very sure
Baby
You're the only one
Touching my heart
Yeah, that's you

I admit I'm quite ignorant
Don't know your true feelings
You said you are heartbroken
Don't you know that when I hear it I also feel hurt?

I don't want to feel the pain of breaking up
Breaking up is not my wish

Because
I love you
This I am sure
Not shaken
Baby
You're the only one
Teaching me how to love more
Yeah, it is you

There's still time there's still chance
For you I keep improving myself

Because I love you
This I am sure
No lies about it
Baby you're the only one
That I love till it hurts
Yeah, it's you

Baby, you're the one
Teaching me how to love more
Yeah, it's you

I'm not a good man
But I'm a better one than you give credit for being.

And guess where I got the inspiration from?

Sherlock Holmes!

Hahaha. I'm serious!

Accountability

Accountability: what does that mean?

In a nutshell: Accountability is simply being responsible for your actions.

I learned it through my leaders in church and I realised how irresponsible I have been. And because of that, I am learning how to be more responsible and accountable.


So I get a little annoyed when people don't play their part.

I get very annoyed when they go and 嗆聲 (argue back) at me, as if I'm the one to be blamed.


For goodness sake, if you don't know how to manage your time, don't blame it on people who push you for datelines.

Very well, you can all go and say all kinds of things. Whatever it is, I'm not someone to be bullied like a doormat. I don't care what kind of personality you have, laidback or not. If you can't deliver, I can wait. But waiting has its limits.


Yes, I am very annoyed now.


Goodness, please go and learn how to manage your time and stop giving excuses, plausible or not.


I feel like I'm apostle Paul talking to the Philippians regarding confidence in the flesh.

"If anyone else thinks he has reasons to put confidence in the flesh, I have more: circumcised on the eighth day, of the people of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, a Hebrew of Hebrews; in regard to the law, a Pharisee; as for zeal, persecuting the church; as for legalistic righteousness, faultless." (3:4b-6)

So if these people think that they have excuses, I can have more.



The key:
Don't take up more than what you can handle. We are not created to be superheroes. If you need to say no, say no. Don't be nice about it and end up annoying another person. Unless you are superman and has plenty of time to kill, then do whatever you want.

Another key:
Never overestimate yourself. Know yourself well enough to know what you can do and how fast you can do it. Always give yourself buffering time to sort out any problems you might face. Prepare for the problems to come.

(Just like Peter saying about persecution. "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you." - 1 Peter 4:12. Though that does not apply to the above statement, but hey, the essence is still: be prepared!)

The last key:
Always be accountable to the people who delegate to you responsibilities! If you find that you will be late, tell them in advance. If you cannot do it, tell the relevant people in advance. It can save your reputation as well!

Bus Stop

Wow, it's been long since I posted a song.

After exams, I hope to try my luck and submit my works to some publishers.

Very exciting!

I wrote this song out of whim. So it's pretty weird lyrics. But I've been writing on whims lately. But I've definitely been writing simpler songs using simpler words. Cause I don't have time to sit down and know some difficult Chinese words like Vincent Fang does.

Some people just need more time to do other personal stuff.

Like me.

Well, here goes:

The song is entitled Bus Stop. Yeah, told you it's weird.

茫然地
想念你
在等待
應該是吧
太狼狽
你還在笑笑著
沒有慚愧

太安靜
沒按鈴
下一站
不得安慰
時間表
我不是堅持著
至少應該要按照

路過以前的圖書館
瀏覽過一本一本的記憶
訴說愛情的公車站
刻滿戀人的相遇
充滿我們的慨憶

你好嗎
快樂嗎
上了公車捨得嗎
你是否忘記了
車裡少了一個乘客
我不好
只能笑
錯過了愛情公車
追隨不到
遲到了

茫然地
想念你
在等待
車返回

Rough/Literal Translation:

Absentmindedly
I'm missing you
Waiting for you
Could be
Too embarrassed
You are still smiling
No regrets

Too quiet
Didn't ring the bell
Next station
Didn't get any comfort
Time table
I'm not being persistent
But at least should follow (Manglish grammar I know)

Pass by the library once there
Browsed through every memory
Telling about love's bus stop
Filled with carvings of lovers' meeting
Filled with our sad memories

How are you?
Are you happy?
After you step unto the bus, were you reluctant?
Did you forget
There's less one passenger in the car
I'm not well
I can only smile
Miss love's bus
Can't chase after
I'm late

Absentmindedly
Thinking of you
Just waiting
For the bus to return



Yeah, weird. Told you.

A Time For Everything

There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

(Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8)


Kau Tuhan adalah Bapaku
Yang sangat menyayangiku
Tak pernah sekalipun
Ku dapati
Kau sakiti hatiku

Kau Tuhan adalah Bapaku
S'lalu memperhatikanku
Tak ada alasanku ragu-ragu
'Tuk serahkan hatiku
KepadaMu


Lord, You're the only comfort. I will still see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

What To Do

I've reached the phase where "I-don't-feel-like-doing-my-assignments-anymore-but-I-have-no-choice-
cause-I-don't-want-to-fail- my-paper."

It's irritating when it all comes upon you like a big torrent of waves and then leave you wet without a towel. After a while, you got so used to the wetness that you'd couldn't be bothered to get dry.

I am frustrated, I am annoyed, and I admit I am quite an impatient person without a sense of perseverance.

However, because of the consequences I will face should I throw everything to the wind and forget about my assignments, exams, my principles (what principles?) and my dignity..

I shall have to stir and strive on.


The holiday looks so tempting I wish it could be here right now.


Sigh. Take my advice, lads:

Plan early and stick to the plan, no matter what.